Time Flies.....

well, here it is seven weeks until this next baby arrives. seriously??? i feel like it was just yesterday that i found out i was pregnant...okay so not yesterday, but not that long ago. it is hard for me to wrap my brain around the fact that i am both completely ready to not be pregnant and have the baby here, and also at the same exact time terrified of how i am going to handle having two under two. i know people do it all the time and are just fine, but i am pretty sure they are tired. VERY TIRED. and the thing of it is, i was just getting used to not being tired anymore. i am also stuck between thinking that if it is a boy then i will be done having kids and thinking i could have about 20 more. stupid duggar family. if they didn't look so happy and well adjusted i might not have this problem. seriously though, i don't think i can be done at two...maybe three. three seems to work well for other people i know. what would happen if i had three under three? would that make me totally crazy? would it make jason totally crazy?? isabelle isn't helping the situation much. she has started giving me hugs, which is like the most adorable thing EVER. she wraps her arms around my neck, squeezes and makes the cutest little noise ever. the hugs alone make me want at least 2 more if not 20 more. so who knows. i guess it is a good thing i don't have to make up my mind today!